Trust

Whom shall I trust
My own hormones and lust
or my rage and my hate
that await at Hell’s gate,
My past and my fist
that I’ve raised to my Lord
or the blood that is dripping
from my thirsty sword.

Whom shall I trust
when my enemies win
and my body and soul
thrown into a tailspin.
When my spirit is dead
and my mind is shattered
do I look for my bread
In all that has scattered.

Are my thoughts and my sight
so narrow to see
that an end to my fight
could possibly be?
Present pain and disgust
speak too loudly to me
that I fail to trust
His Majesty

Darkness alone
is all I have earned
My soul dethroned
for in all I have yearned
I trusted You not
God of all earth
though ‘twas even by You
I was birthed

For somehow I saw Jesus
as different than You
God of humanity
dare i come unglued
judging all that is wrong
on your middle name
although Jesus and You
are one in the same

Whom can I trust
from dawn until dusk
and all through the fright
in the nightmares i must
for i see You as mighty
in my unending sin
a castaway
reconciled by kin

Trust You
or trust me
these two choices I’ve got
No other
Trust You
Or not

For thine eyes have seen
injustices mourned
and your Son lights the way
walks on water in storms
and seeing into all hearts
who've been wounded by wrong
with all time in your hand
given us a new song

so i choose
without feeling and thought
be the rule
choose to trust you
my God
through hardship and duel
and where I fail to feel safe
in your arms from mine own
even there, Lord
i kneel at the foot of your throne

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